When I grow up…

I want to wake each morning to the sound of wind-chimes blowing in the breeze. I want a cozy home that smells of fresh flowers in the spring, warm air in the summer, hot soup in the autumn and incense in the winter. I want a doormat that says “welcome”, big comfy sofas and a little clutter. I want two cats curled up by the embers of a natural fire and big mugs that I can wrap my hands around.

i want a well stocked kitchen with twee little magnets on the fridge, and a home full of reminders of happy times and friends. I want a whole room full of books with a rocking chair next to the window, overlooking a garden that’s pretty but slightly overgrown.

When i grow up, I want to live in a home that I can share with my loved ones, not a show home. i want to make a haven that’s an escape from the fast pace of reality.

When I grow up, I want to be as happy as I am right now.

Devon

Last weekend I travelled to Sidmouth in Devon with the Wizard and his family to visit his grandpa for his 80th birthday. I was a little nervous as I would be meeting various cousins, aunts and uncles for the first time, but I needn’t have worried. It turns out that the Wizards family are very similar to mine when it comes to welcoming new people to the clan. As soon as I got through the door I was thrown at numerous friendly, welcoming people, given a drink, and told that food was on the way.

We spent the weekend talking, drinking, playing the wii, playing poker and wandering about taking in the lovely scenery, a most relaxing time

I know that this should be a longer post, but I’m having a mad day, and this way at least I’ve said something about it!

One month late, 20 things I MUST do this year

Get rid of my credit card bill and actually only use it when I need to.
I plan to set up a direct debit to my credit card of £50 per month, hopefully this will help me to get rid of the nasty little thing

Eat healthily.
Something I really really need to start doing as I don’t treat my body with much respect at the moment, and as much as I’m all for enjoying life, I would like to make it last a little longer than it will if I carry on eating crap as well as misusing it.

Get rid of one of my overdrafts.
I currently have two accounts with £800 on each of them, I want to get rid of one because it’s a bit ridiculous starting the month in the red. Yet again I will set up a direct debit of £50 a month to it and step this up to £100 a month once I have cleared my credit card bill.

Stop smoking cigarettes (except at festivals)
They cost too much, and I’ve had a cough for about 4 months now so I really need to do something sensible to get rid of it.

Start doing my sit-ups again.
Beer bellies do not look attractive on women

Go to Reading festival
I miss my spiritual home

Go to Glastonbury Festival
I need to try something new, and Vikki’s Alan can’t come to Reading this year

Go to Amsterdam
A nice long weekend with the Wizard to give us some time together without everyone else

Catch up on all my backlogged books
I need to read all the books that people have lent me or that are sitting on my shelf yet to be read, then I can think about starting on the list of books I need to get!

Pay a little more heed to my appearance
Simple things like brushing my hair before I leave the house or actually checking in the mirror to make sure the clothes I’m wearing in fact match… I am the queen of useless fashion sense!

Get my totem tattoo
Just the outline this year perhaps as I feel this one is going to be quite expensive and I may find it a bit tight if I’m trying to get rid of some of my debts. I really can’t wait to get it done though, must start researching possible designs soon

Go to Portugal
For a family holiday. It’ll be nice to get away with the olds

Start a Japan account
This may be wishful thinking if I also do everything else I want to do, but if I open up another account and just use it for Japan type savings I can put things like birthday monies in it. Also if BT’s shares actually go back up I can sell mine when they mature in August… if not I may be waiting a while to sell them

Learn something new
I feel I haven’t exercised this brain of mine in quite a while, I need to learn something new, I have a rough idea of what it might be, but I need to do some research…

Visit the Fat Duck
Another expensive one for the list, but I really hope to go there this year, if not early next year, for the tasting menu which sounds amazing

Get my nipple pierced
Pretty self explanatory that one

Get a burlesque pic printed out
I need to get one of the burlesque piccies of myself and the sisters developed so that I have a lovely piccy of the three of us to hang on my wall. I want to get it framed nicely too

Sort out storage in my bedroom and my aunts loft
At some stage this year I need to go through my bedroom and all the stuff I have in storage at my aunts and get rid of all the crap I’ve been hording over the years, I’m such a magpie

Shakespeare at the globe
I really want to go and see a Shakespearian play performed at the Globe theatre, preferably when Patrick Stewart is in the line up

Get people to the Medieval Banquet
All dressed up, just for fun, because it’s a great night out!

books books everywhere

Yesterday night turned out to be a lot more interesting than I had expected. I toddled over to my mum and dads to catch up on things at that end and then went down the road to my aunt’s to rummage through her loft for any books I may have left in storage there. Half an hour later I had three boxes worth of paper! Mum gave me a lift home with Vikki and her Alan and they helped me to get them into the flat.

We played computer games and chatted while I sporadically disappeared to my room to pack for today and to organise my books onto shelves before disappearing at around midnight. It felt a bit odd being in the flat on my own, but i wasn’t awake for too much longer so it didn’t really matter.

I also got several texts yesterday from the guys in Prague, I think they miss me

brain dump

Why do I feel this need to be around people all of the time? I can entertain myself perfectly well, and yet since my life exploded into a beautiful collage of friends, adventures and nights out, I’ve found it very difficult to be by myself. Perhaps my subconscious has connected solitude with unhappiness somehow, maybe some part of me fears that as quickly as I’ve discovered happiness it will be torn away from me again, I know only too well how fragile the highs and lows we ride on are.

Maybe I’ve just got too used to people being around, I didn’t have as much opportunity for that previously and so had acclimatised to a quiet life, perhaps I just need to make more time for myself… No, that would be a waste, I’m going to enjoy every second of the various fascinating personalities that pass through my life while they’re there and as long as my mind is still working properly.

Still, tonight is going to be odd. I’ll set myself tasks, come back from mum and dads about half 9, get myself packed for travelling the next day, read, catch up on some TV, is it OK to have a drink if you’re on your own? Will it matter if there’s no one there to tell me I shouldn’t?

Tomorrow promises new experiences, new people, new scenery, it’s going to be fun

Full House

Living in shared accommodation and being quite social types, it’s hard for the Wizard and I to get much alone time, more so recently since he started working late shifts at the ski centre. So when we realised that everyone would be at the pub last night, we decided to have a quiet one and some time to ourselves.

About halfway through the day I got a call from a friend of mine saying he needed help with his CV. I know what a pain they can be, and I also know I’m quite good at making them look snazzy and using the right buzz words, so I told him to come over at around 9. I figured that way I could be helpful and still get some time alone with the Wizard. On the way home I got a call from another friend who wanted to know what everyone was up to that evening and asked if he could pop over to chill, I told him to turn up at around 9, I thought if they both came it wouldn’t make much of a difference.

I got home, the wizard turned up, Jon came home and started getting ready for the pub… then I got a text from CV dude saying he was heading over early… then the other guy turned up at just gone 8, guh. Luckily Jon, Eddie, Jarvis, Ivan, Briffa, and whoever I’ve forgotten are all off to Prague so there was no Jon in the flat that night, we finally got the place to ourselves at about midnight.

Tonight the Wizard is working again, then we’re off to Devon for his granddad’s 80th this weekend, then the guys will all be back from Prague, never a dull moment!

I do get a bit fed up with never having any alone time, but on the other side of it if I’m in the flat on my own I never know what to do with myself, I have got so used to having people around that being on my own leaves me at a bit of a loss. Tonight should be interesting! I’m popping over to mum and dads straight from work, then I have to get back to pack stuff for the weekend, then maybe I’ll use the rest of the night to catch up on my reading

Strange everyday occurances

It’s odd how you can normalise to some things isn’t it? I let myself into the Wizard’s flat this lunchtime to find his flatmate standing at the other end of the corridor holding an imaginary gun and “shooting” repeatedly (with sound effects) at my head. I took this to be some kind of greeting and just said hello then closed the door and began walking towards him, at which point he shouted ‘fall back!’ and ran into the lounge, shutting the door and pushing himself against it.

As I neared the door I he started opening and closing it himself to make it look as if he was struggling to keep back an enemy, so I tried my luck at getting in. He then ran to the back of the room, threw several chairs in my way as a blockade, and started chucking clean laundry at me. I made my way over to a chair about halfway through the room, so he skirted round me, hyperventilating, then ran upstairs shouting something about there being no stopping them.

5 minutes later he came down, saw me in the chair, said hello, and sat down to play with his PC.

Next time I’m bringing my imaginary AK47.

Starting Afresh

OK here goes, another new site and the hope that this one doesn’t go all quiet on me. It’s been a very long time since I first took those few steps into the world of blogging and i have been addicted to it ever since! Because this is relly just a continuation of my old blog on platform 27, which was a continuation of my old blog on 20six, I’m not going to go through the introductions, I’m just going to start where i left off!

Today I have mainly been wandering around Romford with the middle sister filming her entering mens loos and taking photo’s of the urinals, as you do. She’s doing it for an art project and I’m just along for the ride, after all, you should always try new things right? It was actually more exciting than I expected it to be, we had to watch the doors first to see if anyone was in there, then I started filming and Vikki went and knocked on the door before entering. If it was occupied we had to leave because we can’t have anyones image without getting permission, if it was free then we went right in, knowing how odd it would look for anyone coming in behind us to discover two women in the loo with cameras. We’re off to London sometime soon so hopefully we will get some more done then.

I feel like I want to do something tonight, but I don’t know what. I’m heading over to mum and dads after London, then back here I guess, same old same old. What is there to do around here that’s a change of scenery and doesn’t cost anything? Roll on Feb.